Journeys of a Fantasy II

http://switchstix.net/

where all my new stuff will get moved to.  Tired of being confined to LJ (Which I can't get into at work.)

SO!  Long time no update right?!

It really has been a long time and I'm sorry.  Been very very very busy in real life and work.  I am finally situated and used to my living arrangements and getting up at 5:30 and getting home at 10:00pm... it sucks but its life.  Still haven't been able to get a car yet.  Was planning on it this month but then I got a call from my student loan company saying that I haven't paid the loan in almost 2 months (Which I hadn't...) and so I had to drop almost $700 down on the loan and then rent came right after ($800) and so there went a hefty chuck right there >_<

Then since I am going to the fan festival for FFXI I have to pay for transportation up there (Train - Amtrak baby! traveling in style lol) and then have to fork out money for a hotel room which is a nightmare because the convention is in Anaheim (Right next to Disneyland for those who don't know where that is) and right now with the 'discounted rate' for going to the convention I am looking at $165/night for a 1bed room.  I think I am going to be staying a mile away in the Motel6 for $70/night (which is still fucking expensive as shit for a 1 bed room -_-) and then I have to pay for food as well which is probably twice the price it is normally due to the area being a fucking tourist attraction.  They are doing something like a 'Mercenary Program' for people that actually want to help with the event.  I was thinking about it but I would rather be able to be free to do whatever I want to do when I am up there.  The plus side to helping is that they let you in for free (you save $85 which I have already paid and I doubt they would refund me which means that I would probably take a friend but then if I was up there with a friend I would want them to help too so that I am not bored out of my mind and thus still negating the $85 I paid...  ANYWAYS!  I am actually looking forward to it.  Couple co-workers are going but we are all doing are own thing.  We will probably hang out at the convention together but outside of that I don't think we will hang out (rather I don't want to hang out with some of them... they are just plain scary LOL.)

With the dwindling down of my funds for my car and the convention and the vacation I wanted to take at New Years I am not sure how I am going to be able to afford a car let alone more furniture for my apartment.  I am debating about what I should do... Do I cancel the vacation plans and save the money (I still get the time off just won't leave San Diego like I wanted to for new years) and get a car this year or do I keep my vacation plans and make myself suffer without a car.  As I stated above my schedule without a car is a 5:30AM to 10:00PM day.  With a car my day is 7:30AM to 8:15PM roughly.  Much more manageable.  I don't know what to do... I know I -want- to cancel my vacation plans and just save money for a car but then at the same time I -want- to go see Kenny and Christine in San Fran.  I think I will decide for sure before the end of the month.

So what else is new... Hmmm... how about from the guy that -HATES- fish/seafood/anything that even resembles or smells like fish is now addicted to sushi.  When I was drunk my friend Lukas took me to Ichiban on the Rocks.  A sushi restaurant... had some Tuna sushi with Pumpkin Tempura (sp?) and I was like holy shit this is good.  I am heavily addicted to Spicy Tuna Rolls with lots of wasabi and a Sprite :)  Best discovery of my life.  Then the other night I was so drunk that I ate a taco and it had shrimp in it.. I thought it tasted like shit (probably because it was shitty fake shrimp is my guess) but still managed to eat it.

As far as relationships and what not are going for me... I think I was like a little kid in a candy store the last time I posted on here and was all over any guy that came onto me for some reason.  Now I just like to fuck with their heads and have decided that I am looking for friends and nothing else.  If something comes out of that friendship then ya we will go from there.  I am not counting out random sex though because I think I would go fucking crazy but it will be just that... sex.  No being needy and thinking I want something more than the one night.  I feel kind of like a slut saying that but its the true >_>  Sex = Win for the night    Sex =/= Relationships.  Also I don't go looking for the sex either... if it comes to me then ok.  But I am not some sex crazed bitch or anything LOL.  As far as all those guys I've mentioned...

Shawn - won't talk to me at all.  I have missed him by a few minutes in some bars according to my friends but it's probably a good thing because he is only ever seen with other little twinkies.

Rich - Seen him a couple of time in Cheers and I would actually still date him if he wasn't so unreachable.  He talks about wanting to take me out again and what not and I'm like well call me and we can make a date but it never happens and then the next time he sees me he gets excited and ya... its weird.

Lukas - Friends.  I made it clear that I don't want anything more than friendship with him and that it was not him but it was me.  I was not into him like that.  We are going to the J-Lo concert next Wednesday as a birthday present for me.

Jordan - Never heard from that fucker ever again... never on the bus or trolley anymore... not sure what happened with him but whatever.  Was definitely very cute and I liked how bold he was but whatever.

Alex - Trying to figure out what to do with this kid.  He had a thing for me and is actually very cute but a couple things I had a problem with. 1: He -JUST- turned 18 and I'm turning 22 on Wednesday. 2: He flat out admits that he likes to hook up with guys just to get some sex and then will dump then when he gets tired of them.  3: He lives in Poway area which is like 25mins from where I live driving so imagine a commute like that on a bus when it takes me 2 hours to go 6 miles to work.  We talk on the phone but I won't meet him in real life yet unless he comes to me and I told him I won't put out even if he does come to me because of what he admitted...  I had to make up a story about having a boyfriend to get him to stop calling me and texting me every 5 minutes (can you say needy?) but we will see... probably nothing will ever come of it though.

Work!......................SUCKS!  Well no shit right?  I mean seriously though.. I do my job very well and I do it very thoroughly and I get reprimanded for taking longer than most people and I'm like "Look... I do my job very well I always get high evaluations from Quality Assurance and I am always getting Kudos and compliments to my supervisor for having such great customer service" but apparently that’s not good enough for them.  They want me to just 'Do my job' and move on.  I'm like you realize people would die to have people like me working for them because they know they won't have to worry about them taking shortcuts or fucking things up and even if they do they know how to fix it.  Whatever... I still would love a job in Computer Repair (Software Related only and so that rules out Geek Squad type of jobs) or PR type of jobs because I love organizing events and taking care of the publicity.  But I can't seem to find a job that would support something like that...in San Diego.

Now for FFXI~~~~~ FINALLY!  I am loving being back.  But first I deleted Tetsou and inherited a character called Melbolt.  Melbolt is a Lv75 Galka Beastmaster.  I took Ninja up on him and am taking it to 75.  Currently at Lv50 and finishing up all the AF quests.  You can check my status on BlueGartr's Wiki (http://wiki.bluegartrls.com/User:Koga) and I will update that all the time since it's fast and easy. My current goals in FFXI:

NIN to 75

Smithing to 100 (He currently has cooking 93 but cooking is boring as shit and the profit is minimal.)  Yea Yea food sells all the time I know but still come on now.... Spend 150k sell for 175k over the course of 3 days.  So every 3 days I make 25k.  If I were to follow this pattern and prices didn't change I would have made ~3,000,000g at the end of 365 days.  I'll take my chances at a -real- skill.

Kikoku!  This time for realz!  I am going to farm and synth my ass off and do nothing else except for LS events/meriting and get Kikoku.

Possibility #1

SAM to 75

Amanomurakumo! (Relic Great Katana)

Yoichinoyumi! (Relic Bow)           These 2 are going to be for the SAM since SAM can use both.

Possibility #2

PLD to 75

Excalibur! (Relic Sword)

Aegis! (Relic Shield)               These 2 are going to be for the PLD since PLD can use both.

I'll post pics of Melbolt and my NIN when I get a day off again 9Aiming for Tuesday-Thursday this week and I can hit 55-56ish NIN.  Been solo'ing mostly of Goblin pets and it was fucking amazing.  Was duo'ing with this JP WHM and I wish I had the SS where said

"('o';) (Experience Points)(Impossible to Gauge!)"

"good skill ninja(*'-')"

I was like... Thank you.  I know.  You should have seen me on Virii ;_;

But I will definitely start posting Screenshots.  I will also try and adjust my schedule so that I can get into Dynamis and Sea at least once a week.

OK, so been working on this update for well over an hour now and I know there are lots of typos because I am typing this in Notepad at work on my split.

I will have pics up by Thursday.

ALSO!

THIS LJ MAY BE MOVING VERY SOON!  I have been donating to BG for a while now and I can get a Word Press Blog hosted on their servers and am expecting the move to happen sometime soon.  I will leave this LJ up forever and leave a link on the Blog.

Reason for switching? Formatting.

Check this link here (http://www.jonwaraas.com/example) to see the template I want to incorporate into the WP Blog.

When the switch does happen I will post anything from this post on into it but everything else stays here.  Melbolt is a new me in FFXI and to commemorate (and since I need a change) I want a new blog.

Never saw this movie in theaters but i should have.  very cute movie  :)  Romance, Comedy and Fashion come together in one.  Three of the best things in life.

Is anyone else going to the FFXI Fan Festival this year? I think I am going to go with a few people that I know play FFXI at work.

Also 2 Year Birthday of this LJ is coming up and I am thinking about paying for an account so I can do a custom HTML/CSS layout.  Think its worth it though?

Jordan is his name.
Saw him again on the bus but its a weird distant type of thing...  I can only see him in the morning and it goes by all too fast for me and its weird because its the most bazaar rule I've ever heard of.  Going to ask him out next time I see him because its too weird only being able to see someone in the morning.

Did anyone watch the last season of Flipping Out?  I love it... I wish I could work for him >_>;

Also I try to play WHM but all I get are retarded parties and no exp and I can't solo and yea...  This is where I miss the aspect of WoW that allowed me to solo and play at my own pace.  Thinking of saying screw WHM and only leveling RDM to 37 and BLM to 75 soloing all the way on gob pets.

woooo internet!

So today I am riding the bus to work and at my last transfer there is this boy and I notice him and he notices me and we both just meet eyes, smile and look away... We both get on the bus and he sits in the back but there are no other seats back there so I sit up front, I look behind me at every stop and he is there looking back at me. So finally after people start clearing out I move back to the back of the bus behind him and he sits there pretending to read a book and and he keeps looking at me and then back at his book and then back to me and I keep looking out the window and then back at him and we both smile everytime we meet. Finally he comes to the back row with me and I ask him for a pen, give him my bus pass with my name and number asking him to call me. After some small talk turns we both get off on the same bus stop, he works like just up the street from where I do. Since he works right near the stop and I have to walk another 3/4 mile he asks me if he can walk with me for a bit. I said it was fine and then we get down about a 1/4 of a mile from the main road and he stops and we just look at each other and smile and then he goes in to kiss me and we sit there on the side of the road making out for 10 minutes or so and then we both went to work and omg I so hope he calls me
He was so cute... and he likes kissing ^^
Signs that your going to have a good day: See Above.

Posted on BG too lol...
As of right now no call back so I its boo for me ><

http://maps.google.com/maps/ms?ie=UTF8&om=1&msa=0&msid=103163918238172168883.000438dbb93e056b39925&ll=32.793047,-116.828613&spn=0.581833,0.933838&z=10


Map of Old, New, and Work Address.
Lines showing the routes I take.

OK, so one of the things I've been asked a lot is when did I know I was gay...
I always tell people that I have just pretty much always known... There was no real start time

It's interesting though.. I'm packing my stuff out of my house and I found a very old journal I kept from 1993 I think I was in third or fourth grade then...

Interesting.... I think the topic was someone important in our lives...
Here is what I wrote:

"The most interesting person I ever met was Matthew.  Mathew likes red and blue like me and we both like his mom apple pie.  The next thing Mathew likes is four-square we play at recess all the time.  Better than all that, Mathew likes me!  Matthew has brown hair and brown eyes and is always nice to me.  I like Matthew too."

My teachers response on the page:
"Bryan, where do you know Matthew from?  Come see me at lunch please"   with a  '~'  face underneath.

I don't remember what ever became of this thing but its interesting looking back....

so the day before i move out my car i am using gets broken into... i lost ~200CD's; $75; my garage door opener; and some of my A&F clothes along with my board shorts.........................................................

fucking bullshit.

"...-lustophobia- that's an illness, and which causes us to hate ourselves.  I want you to love your lust, because loving your lust is an important part of loving yourself."
---Peter Ian Cummings
Love this quote...
The new XY Magazine (http://www.xy.com) just came out with their 10 Year Anniversery Magazine.  300 Pages of their best photos from the past 10 years.  I highly recommend getting it.  I'll do some scans after I move in...
Which by the way.... I got a new place for sure
I move in on Wednesday... Its a 1Bedroom off the 805 down in North Park :)   (Map) <-will fix link in morning
For the next half a month though I will have -0- car transportation and I will be reduced to taking City transit making my days start at 5AM and I would be getting home around 10PM on a normal work day....
Basically I get no life for the next half a month (Till prob around the 20th of Sept ><)
Back to playing FFXI in a corner and not spending any money that I make and going to Vons after 9PM and buying 2 loafs of garlic bread for $1.50 :D
I will get pics too.. i changed my hair style :O
I think it will look good but I need to do some high maintenance work to it such as getting a flat iron and straightening it to be the most straight it could possible be and then getting the Pomade to mold my hair the right way...
I'll take pic's and put them on MySpace and I might make one into an avatar for LJ :)
Untill Next Time~~~~~

PS---> KENNNNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
I GOT NEW YEARS OFF! I AM GOING TO VISIT YOUR SORRY ASS APPARTMENT ON NEW YEARS! lol

赤１０
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Took me long enough... But not doing too bad in the long run.  Next to do is get RDM to 20 and get SJ Unlocked.  Then take WHM and BLM to 37.  Then RDM to 75.
I know I should do DRK Sub but I'm not going to worry about DRK Sub since my main will be NIN75 once I get that.
I will get it someday but not now... Small Update :)

So in 1 Day I did what could never do in 2.5 years of ffxi
Helllloooooo JP FFXI!

Bah I'm bored.
Changed LJ Layout
Made Hamburgers for myself
Watched TV
Defragged Comp
Uninstalled all useless shit (See: WoW)
Got a new dsktop background
watched a really cute movie

man i feel lazy and god does it feel good yet so boring.
PS new desktop Image is fucking HOT.  Feel free to use lol...

*Too large to put entire thing on journal so use link.
*Shirtless boy... Gay Warning.
http://i14.photobucket.com/albums/a326/Switchstix/jymrtyhjm.jpg

Hi.
I just found a mother fucking steal of a deal.
Studio Apt for $675 in Hillcrest.
***Map***
That is fucking awesome.
Right next to all the bars I go to and next to all my friends and 10 minutes away from work.
Only problem is I don;t have any money right now because I just paid all my bills and my traffic shit and I would still need a new car to get around in.
I know that place will get taken up in a heartbeat... so hoping I have at least 30 days.  They have 2 spots open.
h yeah for fun... i'm starting up FFXI again, taking my time and not rushing.  but I won't be buying the game untill next payday. Hopefully I will be close to 75 when the new expansion comes out.  One of my main reasons for coming back is that SE has handled the RMT situation very well as of recently.
Also after not playing for almost 2 years there will be a novelty factor to the game again.
Taru Male BLM. Short. Gray Hair. Same as Virii was. :)
Shawn's roomate (who rents the appt he lives in) got evicted so hes moving and is busy and with me working I prob won't see him for a few days now so I have all this time and nothing to do other than troll forums or watch tv.

Meh,
Here's the picture update I promised:

If you are like me and haven't seen Fight Club in over a month, do yourself a favor.

PS: Rich is being a lamer and hasn't called me back.  If he wants to be my friend awesome, but thats all we will ever be because I don't think I can handle someone who is so out of touch.

Shawn is such a fucking awesome guy!!

2 Nights ago we had I guess a first date re-do.  We met up at a bar, had few drinks real fast then went to grab some dinner then walked around a bit and went to another bar for a few more drinks and to talk.  Then instead of going home he took us to a park that looks over the city and is very nice with lots of fountains :)  thats a long story short and I'm leaving it like that for now, but don't get any ideas, because nothing happened and I'm glad nothing happened.  Feels like a real relationship developing verses another chapter in a sex novel.

Real Life Update!
AKA: Drama.

Where to start... First lets make a list for me to work off of:
Rich
RayVon
Shawn
Tanya
Armando
Where I stand.

First things first, Rich, out of the blue, 1 week ago called me up and was like hey I'm back from out of town and wanted to go hang out with me... mind you he called me at 9:30PM and wants me to come over right then lol.  Not that I really minded that much, I was actually pretty excited and so I said yes, I ended up at his house and were just drinking beers and watching TV.  Was an extremely enjoyable night.  Nothing happened at all.  Was nice to have a night were I could just hang out and connect with someone.  Anyways so the next day I call him back and thank him for letting me come over and said I had a great time and then the next day he texts me saying that he wants me to come over again on Wednesday.  I was supposed to call him when I got off work to make sure that it was still ok to go over, and thats what I did... but he didn't answer.  I tried again an hour later and still no answer... finally at 11:30PM I get a text from him saying that some friend of his from out of town came to visit him and that we probably won't be able to hang out tonight (Well no shit since its almost midnight already).  I didn't respond to the text till the next morning and just said that it was cool and I don't mind and that I wanted him to call me and see what he was doing and maybe hang out the next night.  No Reply.  Waited till that night, called, no reply.  Waited till next day at lunch (~1:30PM) called again, no reply.  Now personally I am one of these people that starts to get worried when I haven't heard or seen someone in a while.. I mean if I get a status update from a friend (oh yeah me and rich hung out last night) I don't freak out, but when I hear nothing at all I start to get worried.  Anyways I was making myself go crazy thinking about why he hadn't called and so I made an executive decision that I was going out to the bars solo to get drunk and hopefully forget about him for a while.  Plan worked perfectly... maybe too well though.  I ended up meeting another guy named Shawn at the bar that I went to.  He was very sweet and very cute and I was very drunk... anyways I flirted the night away with Shawn (who could be a porn star with his body...) and turns out he used to work at the bar before and was getting us hooked up with free drinks most of the night.  We moved out to the back patio and continued our conversation.. was pretty much small talk until the patio closed in which case we decided to leave (and I, being a retard, left my open tab at the bar again... I don't think I should do open tabs anymore) and we walked down aways, past Rich's from Mo's... that about 1.5Miles lol... then we decided to take a cab to his friends bar (why we decided this after walking so far away I have no idea) but then we get to this place called Cheers.  Was a very small but awesome bar.  I started getting really flirty with Shawn and between all the shots ended up having a quick make-out session with Shawn along with way too much touching.  Part of that touching though could not be helped... his body was seriously... I cannot get over it.  But anyways around 1AM low and behold guess who finally decides to call me, Rich.  Rich was like where are you and I told him that I was down at Cheers and it turns out that Rich is a frequent at the bar there and he said he wanted to come down... so I said it was ok but then had to go back into Shawn and tell him that my boy who I was kinda reserved for is coming down.  He was sad about it and I was too because he was saying that he really liked me and thought I was very cute and he was hoping he would have been able to ask me out on a second date ><  Which made me feel bad because in a way I ruined his night if he was hunting.  I am still happy though in a very selfish manner about that though because I am glad I got the chance to meet him.  Fucking amazing body and very funny.  Not very many guys openly admit that they are pretty and and don't know how to spell. :P  He gets kudos for being truthful.  So I gave him my number and asked him to call me and what not.  We both decided that we would like to remain friends at the very least for now.  So we went outside and waited for Rich, as he shows up he didn't even recognize me waiting at the door? but whatever I was happy to see him.  I introduced Shawn and Rich to each other and we went back inside to get more drinks.  As the night went on we had fun playing darts and talking and being loud lol.  Around closing time for the bar Shawn took off because he had to work the next day.  Me and Rich stayed behind, and since Rich knew the bartender/owner of Cheers he let us stay in after hours and grab more drinks.  Then later on the Budweiser girl by (lol i love her to death.. fucking beautiful and funny and she loves gays) and we just chatted up the night away until about 4AM.  We covered everything from Pride, Politics, Abortion,  etc etc etc...  I signed up to help with SD Pride since the manager actually is in charge of it or at least part of it.  At 4:00AM I drove Rich and I back to his place in his jeep and we ate some ravioli and watched a movie till we passed out.  When we woke up we moved to the bed so that we wouldn't be so friggin cold.  But when I woke up he had left the bed and went back to the couch... I was a little thrown off because he had no problem sleeping next to me on Monday.  Anyways then I woke him up at 8:30AM to go grab my truck because I didn't want to get towed away.  He seemed a bit complacent to go but agreed.  We got back to the Cheers area and I was like my truck is down by Moes and he made some comment about how far away that was from where we were, so I offered to grab him some gas for payment and he declined :/  then I pointed out where the truck was and then he dropped me off but when I got out there was no hug, no kiss, no I'll call you later, just a later dude type of thing.  So thats been eating me up really bad today... Not sure what was eating at him or he was just tired but I wish I knew where we stood because I will be honest.  If I knew that me and Rich were just going to stay real good friends than I would have so continued to have fun with Shawn, but instead I didn't want to fuck anything I had going on with Rich so I killed it before it got out of hand.  Well I called Rich in the afternoon when I woke up and apologized saying that if I was an ass or said something stupid that it was the alcohol speaking and not me.  Well here we go again... no reply.  I am wondering if I will get a call back from him anytime soon.  In the mean time Shawn called me tonight and we are going to go grab coffee tomorrow sometime.
Thats Rant #1.
Rant #2: RayVon is leaving to go back to Michigan because he can't afford the cost of living with him his daughter and his wife out here.  I offered to move into an apartment with him but he wanted to move the wife in too and I said I won't move in with her since he is gay and he needs to bite that problem in the ass and just get a divorce and live his own life.  He seems to think he is doing what is right for his daughter but I explained that its going to make it harder and harder for him to live a normal life if he keeps hiding... but what do I know, right?
Tanya and I are in this almost falling out phase it seems.  We don't talk much at all it seems and she doesn't like Rich or support me in trying to date him so we just kinda avoid each other right now.
Amando has been a fucking god send to me recently with all my new problems.  I keep going to him for advice on what I should do.  I would like to thank him for that.  It's nice knowing that you always have someone there you call up and grab a cup of coffee and go talk about our shitty lives.

The main concern for me right now is where I stand.  I want to know where I stand with Rich and if we are going to just be friends or if we are going to try and make a relationship out of this because shit last night should not be happening if we are in a serious relationship.  It seems like Rich doesn't like me all that much because of the fact that he never calls or talks to me except when he seems bored or has nothing better to do yet in his messages he says stuff like I want to see you again real soon.  I am not sure how to interpret his actions.  Any other person I would assume they didn't want to hang with me but he says that I want to see you again stuff so I am not sure which it is...  Then when opportunity comes knocking by (See last night: Shawn) I have to turn it down because I don't know where I am going...  I am hoping to be able to talk with Rich about it before he leaves... he leaves on the 27th of this month to go to Austria so we will see what happens.  I enjoy Rich a lot but I don't enjoy being a back burner use when you get bored boyfriend.
Whatever.
New shift starts tomorrow: 8AM-12PM 4PM-8PM Wed/Thurs Off.
Shitty as ever but I guess I have no choice in the matter at this point.

WoW Update: Still haven't downed Gruul. Too busy in real life it seems to be able to be a hardcore gamer... I am thinking that the time for me to decide if online games are right for will be coming up in the near future.

Happy July4!
Expect major update in next week or so.

BLARGH!

Left Weird Alliance because we weren't raiding or progressing.  Xfer'd to Professional Kilers.... Was working awesome till all the hardcore raiders left and took off for god knows where and now the guild is empty it seems so I GQuit them when nobody was online at 6PM(WTF? NOBODY ON AT PRIME TIME?) then I tried to check WA forums and i find out the guild is server xfering or something....... wth?!  
I was offered a position in a hardcore raiding guild <This Game Takes No Skill> They raid 5+ Times a week from 7PM to Midnight O_O;;
I told them I have to wait for shift bid to find out if i can obligate myself to those time frames.
They said they are a late night older(mature.. omg thank god it does exist.. a mature guild)
they don't tolerate drama YAY and they dont tolerate BS
if i can get a morning shift you better believe im signing up.

Real Life..
Wow i'm so tired... i don't know why.
I haven't gone out in 3 weeks and I need to go out next weekend with my friend armando to talk i think.. maybe thats what i need to do.. get drunk and spill my mind to someone
WTb someone to cuddle with D: